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Thursday, December 02, 2004

Went to JiaYun's house to watch the Inunion video... So much for being together, but the last superman was good, honestly speaking. I suddenly discovered that my fringe totally sucks.. But that's another thing. Anyway, I guess we kinda got over the thing already though it's always underlying there.
Heard the pieces as well. I totally sucked. I don't know why, but the pieces don't sound as intense as how I think they should. Maybe it's because it's through video, not as good as live performance. But I totally sucked all the same. O well.. Met our seniors at Lido during lunch. We decided to apologise for screwin things up and letting them down. Venetia ran up the escalator. Felt amazed. Not only because the escalator was going down whereas she was going up. But the fact that she didn't bump into anyone in her hurry to get up. I saw. There were quite a lot of people.. I think the whole batch should actually hear what they said. We are going to make it up to them by playing well for SYF. Well, as well as we can... Er.. That sounds wrong. But I don't really dare to make any promises right now, no need to mention on behalf of the batch.
Got the cramps today so couldn't do footdrills. Felt so guilty. As in, the rest of them were standing there doint footdrills, whereas I was just sitting in the shade, looking at them. Stupid anatomy. Of all days... I can't help but feel that I've let someone or something down... Er... That sounds wrong too...
Yay... So happy... YanRu and Pollyna not quiting. I guess Inunion really bonded the 24 of us that went really well... As for the other three, I don't really know what to say. It would actually seem like they're secluded from the rest of us. As in, they didn't go through the thing and I guess they don't really feel the sense of importance Band now has on us. They don't really know how it feels like to have your hardwork just totally screwed... (This is so pessimistic and I am self-contradictary) ... or cried together and hugged each other for comfort... (That sounds a little wrong) ... or... er dunno how to put it... (So in other words, this whole para. sounds wrong..)
O. Heard the sec2s singing at the top of their voices today. They were practically stretching their vocal chords to the limit. And not to mention that they were horribly out of tune. But who am I to comment on the beauty of modern art? Har. For some reason, looking at them, my future suddenly seemed very bleak. But like what I told PeiXian, if you can't beat them, join them.
Sorry people if you find this hard to follow, cos I'm jumping from one topic to another. But what else do you expect from a person who has mood swings... Tata.

dusted at 11:25 PM
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