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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

yay. just came back from band camp. soooooo... fun. yar. though i screwed up quite a lot for a lot of stuff. is lyk the first two days were quite tiring. as in band prac and stuff. is lyk almost the entire first day is filled with stuff regarding instru playing. so it's kinda quite tiring. and second day during band prac is lyk i was really dying. den right after that is lunch then section and batch testing. i screwed up completely for both. shall not elaborate. buden further confirmed an already confirmed fact. i suck more than shit. cos is lyk my tone cannot, den my range oso cannot, den is lyk got a lot of noise oso. so is basically i make noise, a lot of noise. i really suck. sheesh.
you know, i think is lyk she's getting very sian of me liao. is lyk she's practically daoing me larh and oso lyk i think she prefers mixing around with them rather than me. is lyk. i know we're not really that close, lyk how we shud, buden is lyk, i think she only tolerates me cos she just unlucky get stuck with me. i dunno. normally i'm very oblicious to this fact, buden for some reason, this really hurts sometimes. is lyk, i dun really belong. sometimes i really wonder the point of living.
you know, they all say that love is given freely. but the actions of some really make me consider whether it's true or not. sometimes... i dunno. sometimes i just think that life would be less complicated if we came without emotions. buden life would be boring, very boring. buden, is lyk, life really sucks and it can be very painful oso. cos is oso lyk, hurt is an emotion. if we happened to be emotionless, we can't get hurt. oh man, i'm getting myself confused.
i really hate myself sometimes.
shall blog more later. hmm... maybe tomorrow. blah. this sucks.

dusted at 11:30 PM
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