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Sunday, March 13, 2005

went to read chloe's blog and immediately felt depressed.
is lyk i suck larh. reallyreallyreallyreally suck big time. i mean, she can at least reach the notes above c buden is lyk i'm still struggling, sometimes, with my c. and not to mention that i press lyk shit.
sometimes i think the only reason chloe sometimes carn play some stuff properly is that she's just not confident enough, and she has the tendency to downplay situations. not that i'm saying that it's a bad thing but she happens to downplay things a lot. and i guess maybe with a bit more confidence, she can actually do much better.
me, i'm hopeless. i think they think that too. as in, sometimes, i wonder if they haven't given up hope on me already.
i'm sorry my dear batchmates, sorry if i screw things up for you all during batch testing. sorry if i let everyone down.
you know, they all sound darn nice, really. but is lyk i think i'm the one pulling them down. sometimes i really hate myself. damn.
so screwed for auds, if there are any coming up, which most probably will have.
haiz. depressing entry...

dusted at 11:20 PM
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