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Saturday, April 23, 2005

I'm starting to get the impression that nothing I ever do is good enough. Must you really go into such depths that even my handwriting annoys the shit out of you? So what if it's tiny? I like irritating the hell out of the teachers, and I like that. So what? Happy family? My arse. I don't think I'm even needed. You three seem to get along fine perfectly fine without my presense. I'm sorry for my incompetency. And I managed to lose my handphone. This just goes to prove that humans are not needed. I was just doing my homework happily in the library, minding my own business, handphone on the table. For once, I was actually engrossed in HOMEWORK... Next thing I know, heads up and it's gone. Give a hand to that fella, folks. Somehow I don't think I'm gonna get a handphone anytime soon... So don't call/sms me folks.
Sometimes I find myself real sad. Can't even get along well with my own family. Bleah. Maybe I'm just overthinking.. Today's Sunday, still nothing on sp&d pt thingie. I am so gonna flunk it. Sometimes just don't feel like going to school at all. Then don't have to deal with all the nagging, expectations, homework, stress, urge to slack, going against personal morals... Life can be sooo dramatic. Whatever. Really hate sanity now. It's so overrated. Who really needs it anyway? All it does is to cause problems. Mysteries of life. Ack. Kinda getting a headache about the SL thingie. I'm desperately hoping that the kid won't forget the three alphabets I taught. I am sooo not ready to go through it all over again next week. Bleah. Life in general sucks.
Ack. Don't mind me, I'm just whining. Looking at every downside there is available. I'm just angsting. No point bothering over just another sad teen desperate for attention. Not that anyone would. Bleugh. Sometimes I find it no wonder that I don't feel like going home at all, or feel like running away. Yar, disapprove then. I mean, I owe them that much and all those blah blah blah stuff about family closeness and how I should be grateful for them for bringing me up.. Blah. Hey, I have my rights, it's up to me to decide what I can fell and stuff. Wahaha... Like I've said, I'm overthinking.

eX Dream

Of this world, the end is coming
Dreams and hopes do not matter

Inside your heart, you are sleeping
but you will not wake up
Feel the hand of a future that cannot be changed

Burning for your life
This life will burn out someday, even if you try to cling to it
(for the perfect dream)
Drowning in my dream
Even if it's remembered, a dream is only a dream
You are star light

In that world, overflowing with shines
Your spirit will die out
Soon after the delivery of love by a wishing angel,
With it's hand, stopping the end of the future

Drowning for my life
Someday it will hit, this life cannot go back
(for the eX dream)
Drowning in your dream
Even if it's remembered, where will the dream continue?
I am moon light

Drowning for your life
A surprise is on the way, even if hope is held on to
(for the perfect dream)
Drowning in my dream
Even if destruction occurs, I will not run away

Drowning for my life
Never undecided, this feeling will not stop
(for the eX dream)
Drowning in your dream
A rushing companion, this will be the road of tomorrow
I am star light

Vocal: Myuji
Lyrics: Julian Lewis
From: X/1999 TV series

dusted at 9:35 PM
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