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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

just told me dad my results... he's taking it better than i am, and better than what i imagine he would. but i get the feeling that he's gonna start ranting tomorrow, or maybe once me mom gets home, she's gonna start ranting... bleah. can't be bothered anyway. i mean, it's all over and it's no use making me feel worse than what i already feel. yar. they won't exactly say what i should do about the current results i'm getting, but i know they're gonna start nagging me to start studying. i know it. ah well. anyway, it's about time i really start studying... i've basically slacked throughout the whole of last year, except for the last minute mugging before eoys. and this year, i've been slacking acedamic wise, not that i did anything constructive for any other aspects. bleah. sometimes i really wonder why i chose to go to this school in the first place. for some reason, ummu choo started mentioning band over and over again during cle. i guess band, in some sense, is a good example of a team, but there's plenty of others out there. so i was busy sweatdropping... yar. no idea why the school is even bothering about leadership skills. i mean, there's only so many leadership positions out there in this wide wide world and there's like goodness knows how many of us. still haven't told them my chinese results. i don't know why. i mean, i've already told them my maths... but i guess being chinese, they will pay more attention to chinese. which happens to be exactly the thing i do not excel in. i'm so bloody wonderful. kay. i think i'm rantin a little. nope. still no emotional outbreaks on my part for my oh so poor marks. maybe i'm just retarded. argh. life's a bitch. though i prolly would have mentioned it in my previous entry...
ooh. me blog's one year anniversary's coming up! .yays. still can remember the period last year when i was blogless. they asked me for me bloggie's url, and i say i just don't have one. awwwwwww... so sad. anyways. i got one. yay. i guess it is good stress relief, but sometimes, it just brings trouble. who knows who might be reading... that's exactly why ignorance is bliss. lardeedar.
they all say that sec2's the best year in one's sec. sch life. to me, this year has been nothing more than screwups and more screwups. everythings one big clump of mess... bleah. but i guess you can never truly appreciate something until it is truly gone. so sad. oh. forgot to congratulate myself on actually finishing my homework for once. that's like my one and only maths assignment handed in on time. -claps- i am so wonderful. managed to persuade to help out on some science thingie on saturday, right after sl. and managed to drag joey and qianwei along. i am good... heh. sometimes i just look back to my primary school days and i just can't help be cringe. i was so ignorant, naive blah, blah and much more you can imagine of a p school kiddie. and sometimes, when i look at kids nowadays, i cringe too. i think i might have been like that... argh. nevermind... anyway, life is full of regrets. ooh. and fate's the bitch, not life. life's just an annoying orang utan that's had too many bananas. it's either that, or it's craving bananas. dont' ask why i came up with that.
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dusted at 9:05 PM
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