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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

okay, i know i just blogged, but i feel like doing so again. =D besides, it's my blog. dammit. sometimes i just can't stand some things. i don't know why do i still bother trying to explain things when they never seem to make any difference. as in, i just feel like this extra thing sticking out. i see no point in a lot of things that i'm trying to do just so that we might be able to get along better. who doesn't want to be happy? who wants to feel left out? i mean, i just don't think that i'll get accepted for what i really am like. sometimes i really find it frickingly hilarious. relations are just too complicated.
got back from another bout of saiyuki fics. goku is so nice to bully. ^.^> i feel mean.
and RYOMA IS SHORTER THAN ME!!! muahahahaha... okay... that was really sad. heh. but i just can't help but gloat over this fact. wahaha... i think i'm disillusioned. oh wells. wahaha. hahahahah... just got the sudden urge to start laughing. dammit. i get high at the wrong times.
sheesh. no need to speak to me with that voice all the time. i know you've got a lot of things on your mind and stuff, but care to be a wee bit more gentle? i know i'm being selfish with all my requests and stuff [not that you ever read them...] but hey, i have feelings too [though i have to question that at times...]
you know, sometimes, biting comments from others, however joking it may seem, hurt. especially when you have a few ganged up against you. bleah. somehow got her mad at me, again. so someone so small [i question this too.], she sure has got a lot of air in her. i mean is like, some things you have to do yourself larh. you cannot always depend on others. and you cannot also get angry with others just because they are doing something and do not have the time to help you. you know how selfish that is? and how hurting some of the things you say are? not that you give a damn anyway. not that any of you give a damn about me anyway. i'm just another selfish bastard out to make this world more horrible than it already is. isnt' that what you think?
realised that i'm stuck in a house filled with people who's been the youngest amongst their siblings. that's me life i guess. not to make myself sound like some self-sacrificial hero or what-the-shit. but it's a fact. and it can really get super irritating cos sometimes, they just have to have their way. bleah.
you know, sometimes, i know it's unintentional [is it?], when you accuse me of being wrong and stuff, you can fucking watch what comes rolling out of that trap of yours?? i know this sounds rude, but i really need to get it out. i mean, sometimes, you just have to insist and insist, and you don't even listen to what i might have to say. not that it would matter or that you would believe anyway. but at least give others slightly a bit more thought can? i'm really sick and tired of things.
fortunately, you only get one shot at life, or at least from my point of view. i shan't continue that train of thought cos i guess it might be a bit offensive to some who might be reading this.
final decision, i shall NOT get a tag-board. ignorance is bliss. nuff said. =D Anyway, i'm still pissed off.

dusted at 9:10 PM
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