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Monday, July 18, 2005

sometimes i think the world hates me. not that i'm likeable in the first place.
damn. shouldn't choose gravity to listen to. it's really getting kinda depressing... bleah.
not that she's said anything, but i can tell that she's getting very pissed with me. yar. dammit.
i just suddenly felt like crying today. the class can be so supportive. i'm sorry for producing noise that can give ummu choo's drones a run for money. i'm sorry. really. but if you have a lot of negative feelings to them, you can put them in a more subtle way you know. i'm sorry for being such an utter failure. i'm sorry. damn. i'm thinking too much.
eeh... need to change music. wait. yay. brighter song. yar. open up you mind. it sounds sad today. nevermind. bleah.
like i said, the class can be just so friggin supportive and -- at times. i still want to live, thankyou very much. i know there's people who can't take a bit of critism. sorry if i happen to offend anyone. i know i have no right to actually say such things since i'm just basically a nobody. but i need to get some things off my chest. i know i'm most probably being very selfish. and i know some of you might be thinking that i am very selfish. but i dont' care anymore. i seriously need a break. i'm sorry if anyone's affected by my mood swings. i blame lack of sleep. yar.
shit. ouym's tune's getting rather depressing. don't ask why. it just is. and i'm sleepy... but still got maths assignment + geog pt. ack. i hate it. why did i ever consider raffles when i obviously know that i don't have the standard. argh.
staring at the wilted rose right now. (sorry!) just can't help but feel the same way at times. prolly just another figment of my teenage angst. bleah. i'm an attention craver. ha.
sincerely hope that pe will be super crap tomorrow again. cos i seriously don't feel like doing any sports. i just want to take strolls around the track. wah -cries- dammit.
suddenly feel like mutilating something. blah.

dusted at 7:35 PM
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