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Saturday, September 24, 2005

well. i guess it's over. for some reason, i seem perfectly okay with this. argh. who am i kidding. i'm not okay with this, not really. i don't know. but for some reason, things just suddenly feel very heavy. i guess maybe it's because they won't be here anymore. i don't have anything to hide under anymore. it just feels so weird, kinda empty. i'm kinda surprised that there weren't much tears. alright i admit that the tears did threaten to come a couple of times, but i didn't cry. don't ask why. i don't know myself. sometimes i really think i'm an insensitive bastard, but that's besides the point. i think i must have really looked like an idiot on the bus on the way home. i was crying. don't ask why. i don't know. although i have to admit, my memories are kinda fuzzy... [i think i'm getting old.] time just seem to pass too quickly.

dusted at 9:00 PM
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